The Narcissist: A Poem About Self-Discovery

BY RACHEL ASLAN

narcissist /ˈnärsəsəst/

noun

a person who has an excessive interest in or admiration of themselves.

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The Narcissist

When she was ten, she lost all of her friends.

She did not look the same as them.

She was weird.

She was different.

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The Narcissist

When she was twelve, she disappeared for a while.

She was going to be normal again.

But she would still have a foot long scar.

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The Narcissist

She returned two months later.

She dropped a few pounds in the process.

She was skinny.

She was noticed.

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The Narcissist

She reached age thirteen

And she put on makeup for the first time.

She felt pretty for the first time.

The kids at school noticed.

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The Narcissist

She turned fourteen the next year.

She made a new friend.

She wore cropped tops and short shorts for the first time.

Boys noticed.

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The Narcissist

She turned sixteen.

She tried alcohol for the first time.

She was invited to her first party.

She kissed a boy for the first time.

She felt noticed.

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The Narcissist

She spends over one hour getting ready each day.

She went up a size.

She noticed.

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The Narcissist

She is only a girl.

She stops at the mirror every time she sees one.

She hates herself.

Her friends notice.

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The Narcissist

She is only a girl.

She goes to the bathroom after every meal.

Her mother notices.

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The Narcissist

She is only seventeen.

She sees her therapist twice a week.

It gets better they say.

She begins to open up more.

They notice.

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The Narcissist

She is eighteen now.

She looks in the mirror.

She begins to smile.

Her friends notice.

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The Narcissist

She is almost done with grade school.

She is getting ready for her prom.

She puts on her dress.

She is happy.

Her mother notices.

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The Narcissist.

She is nineteen.

She is going to college.

She goes to her first class.

She feels accepted.

She is unique.

Her new classmates notice.

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The Narcissist.

She is twenty now.

She is a force to be reckoned with.

She has found her passion.

She takes pictures of herself.

She is beautiful.

She notices.

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narcissist /ˈnärsəsəst/

noun

A person who has an excessive interest in or admiration of themselves.

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They call her the Narcissist.

All photos by Rachel Aslan.

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